I want to be more like You, Jesus. That was the focus of our post last week. Inward transformation. For us to begin to change, we have to allow God to confront some things in us. Yeah, I know. It’s too early in the morning to be talking about confronting stuff but we have to.
I am so good at turning a blind eye to my own dysfunction so sometimes I need God to step in and point some things out to me. Most times God waits for our invitation. Sometimes He’ll just pull you up on some things like, “You shouldn’t have said that.” I used to try defending myself to Him. But over the years I have come to know that when He says that He is not blaming me for anything. He is not accusing me of anything. I do not need to be defensive.
It is an invitation to get understanding, sometimes of the other person but 99% of the time it’s about me. As I sit in that moment with God, I find myself asking questions like, “Why do I react this way to this person?” or “Why do I get so triggered by them?” Usually, the answer is that there is a part of me that God is reaching out to heal and restore deep within me. Whatever God is doing with you is for you. Yes it benefits other people around you but God loves you first and foremost and what He is doing is to help you become all that He created you to be. He wants you healed, whole and free.
God confronts stuff in us because He wants to help us. In the famous words of Pastor Esther, “What we don’t confront doesn’t change.” If we want inward transformation, we have to allow God to confront things in us. King David, in Psalms 139:23-24, says it this way, “God, I invite your searching gaze into my heart. Examine me through and through; find out everything that may be hidden within me. Put me to the test and sift through all my anxious cares. See if there is any path of pain I’m walking on, and lead me back to your glorious, everlasting way the path that brings me back to you.”
The Message version puts it this way, “Investigate my life, O God, find out everything about me; Cross-examine and test me, get a clear picture of what I’m about; See for yourself whether I’ve done anything wrong— then guide me on the road to eternal life.”
“Investigate” sounds really thorough, doesn’t it? We know God doesn’t need to look far to find our stuff! We can be so afraid of letting God in, but inward transformation does not happen if we are shutting God out. Truth of the matter is, God already knows all there is to know about us. We can hide but the only person who suffers is us… and those around us, especially if we are lashing out. Let God into your dark spaces, you need His light. Let Him look at those things you try to hide, only He can heal and restore.
We will stay stuck in our dysfunction if we do not allow God to confront our stuff. We will end up in places we never wanted to be spiritually or emotionally or even physically if we do not let God re-route us and bring us back on the path that leads to life.
I don’t like pain so if there is a path of pain I am on, I want to get off it. Letting God in is the first step in doing that. Pray Psalms 139:23-24 if you are unsure how to bring God into your situation. See what He does. He is a good God and He is a practical God. You can trust Him.
Love and blessings,